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so it is officially 2012. time for change. for growth. for dreams. the transition back to the real world and US has been infinitely more difficult that i imagined. but.... God is good. period. i need to live in that. i need to continue to grow in the lessons that he has taught me over in africa. i need to find joy in the moment. i need to live in the present. i need to see the fingerprints of God in the day to day.

i have discovered that in my inability to adjust back to the US, i have been living in a selfish hole. i have had a sarah pity party. i have been really awful.... and as a result i have felt really awful. i have doubted my calling. i have questioned my purpose. i have been crabby at God. i have felt incredibly lonely. i have been depressed really.... that needs to stop. God has me here in the US, in WI for a reason. i need to live in that. i need to find ways to seek God in all of it. life is not always easy or fun, nor does it always make sense. it doesn't have to though. we are called by god to be faithful always, regardless of circumstance.

thus, i have decided to attack life with god's help this year. to live on purpose even when it isn't easy. to find joy in EVERY single day. to enjoy the blessings and people that God has given me here. time to be alive.