ministry and life with God often doesn't go as you plan. It's not as easy, glamorous or even always as fun as people hope or envision. Sometimes it's downright hard! .....but.... it's good. it's really good. In the raw and dirty God is ever so present.
i had a plan concerning what I was going to do when I got back to uganda in december. it was all set. naturally, things haven't worked out quite as i expected. for a bit i allowed it to rock me. I foolishly, embarrassingly wallowed in a sarah pity-party for much longer than I should have! I'm glad God hasn't struck me down in all of this!! (yet another testament to his goodness!) I still don't have all the plans ironed out for the next few months, but I am learning a ton!
As I wait, I have a lot of free time. (too much free time!) I hate it. I like being busy and productive. I probably value it too much.... In this time, I could continue being crabby pants ooooooorrrrr I could use this time to press into God like never before. Generally, time like this is non-existent. I am too busy to spend hours with Jesus each day. Isn't it funny too that there are seasons that we crave time with the Lord and then when we get it we don't want it? I think it's because spending this much time with God is very vulnerable. It forces us to face issues that we don't want to look at. It forces us to be honest and raw. It's sometimes really ugly. It is also incredibly beautiful!
I have also decided to pair my spiritual marathon with a physical one. Yup. Let the serious training commence! There are so many spiritual parallels between running and the journey with the Lord! I'm announcing it here as a sort of accountability and look forward to sharing with you the lessons the Lord teaches me through the next months!
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